We got up Sunday morning and went to church with Gary and Colleens. We were able to see so many of the families we love there. This may seem strange but almost everyday I see little boys the same age as Gabriel run around our neighborhood and it almost never bothers me. But when I see little boys from our Pocatello ward that actually played with Gabriel then I struggle with my emotions. To see these little boys growing up so big and cute breaks my heart. Then I find myself quickly remembering how thing were over 3 years ago when my Gabie was there and I hadn’t suffered such a great loss. I miss him so much and during the holidays I wish he was here more and anything. There are so many things that feel off with our family when we remember Gabriel is missing. I pray her is able to be with us on this Christmas morning when we celebrate the birth of our Savior who gave us the opportunity to live as families forever.
So now as I sit in my comfy bed watching movies with my girls I try to remember that I have so many blessings and I’m so blessed with this wonderful home, family and ward. I Love where I am at even though I miss where I came from with all my heart.
I pray you all have a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year with your loved ones.