So every now and then I get bored with the way Saville’s Backyard looks and have to update it. Usually I really enjoy doing it and being creative with it. It usually takes me a good couple hours to get it how I want it. Tonight was no exception. I found the background I wanted and then decided on a banner to do something different. I was tired of the family picture with Gabe’s headstone. Don’t get me wrong I love that picture but I wanted something lighter and easier to look at. So I started looking for pictures of the kids to put on the banner. I wanted new pictures as recent as possible, then it hit me and the tears wouldn’t stop. I can never get any newer or more recent pictures of my Gabie. I know it sounds silly to cry over that when there are so many other things I miss more. But, as my children grow and their pictures change from year to year and I have to update to keep up with them, my Gabie will always be a baby and I’ll never (in this lifetime) be able to update his picture I’ll only be able to rotate what I have. I’m so thankful for the abundance of pictures I have of him, but I’ll always want to see him grow with his siblings. I don’t think that will ever change and will always break my heart.
So tonight was about a new look for my blog and ended up being an emotional rollercoaster. Those things always hit me at the strangest times.
I hope everyone likes the look and lets me know what they think.