Things That Comfort Me…

Today is Sunday and we’re getting ready for David to return to Dugway to work this week. Katie has set a wonderful example for us all by going to church even though we felt like we needed to spend some extra time getting ready for the week at home. She is such a good girl and I love her so much. Last night I was telling David just how much I love my children and in light of things that have happened this last month we have a new love and perspective on the blessing of being a parent.

Lately I’ve had several things touch my heart and comfort me in this time of grieving. I’d like to share some of them,

What Makes A Mother ( This was given to me by a wonderful friend and we had Sherry and Kayla read this at the Funeral)

I thought of you and closed my eyes and prayed to God today. I asked “What makes a Mother?” and I know I heard him say.

“A Mother has a baby” This we know is true “But God can you be a Mother, when your baby’s not with you?”

“Yes, you can,“ He replied with confidence in His voice. “I give many women babies, when they leave is not their choice.

Some I send for a lifetime, and others for the day. And some I send to feel your womb, But there’s no need to stay.”

“I just don’t understand this God, I want my baby to be here.” He took a deep breath and cleared his throat, and then I saw a tear.

“I wish I could show you, what your child is doing today. If you could see your child’s smile, with all the other children and say…

“We go to earth to learn our lessons, of love and life and fear. My Mommy loved me oh so much, I got to come straight here.

I feel so lucky to have a Mom, who had so much love for me. I learned my lessons very quickly, my Mommy set me free.

I miss my Mommy oh so much, but I visit her every day. When she goes to sleep, on her pillow’s where I lay.

I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek, and whisper in her ear. Mommy don’t be sad today. I’m your baby and I’m here.”

“So you see my dear sweet ones, your children are okay. Your babies are born here in My home, and this is where they’ll stay.

They’ll wait for you with Me, until your lesson’s through and on the day that you come home they’ll be at the gates for you.

So now you see what makes a Mother, It’s the feeling in your heart. It’s the love you had so much of right from the very start.”

Author Unknown

I’ve also read a few articles from the May 2010 Ensign Conference Edition that have brought me much peace. “Turn to the Lord” by  Elder Donald L. Hallstrom and “He is Risen!” by President Thomas S. Monson.

He is Risen! He is Risen!
Tell it out with joyful voice.
He has burst his three days’ prison;
Let the whole wide earth rejoice.
Death is conquered; man is free.
Christ has won the victory!
”He Is Risen!” Hymns, no. 199

Then I have a poem written for us by my Aunt Judy. It was a very sweet thing for her to do I’d like to share it. She did a wonderful job explaining a lot of the feelings I have had.

The Gift

Mom rocked little Gabe when he was a tiny baby;
He always found comfort in her loving arms.
Her calm voice gave him security and peace;
He always felt safe from fear or harm.

Mom expected to prepare him as her grew up;
To be strong, yet gentle boy.
But little did she know that soon he would be gone;
Oh, how was she to know his stay would no be long?

The night that Heavenly Father called Gabe back home;
It didn’t seem right or even fair.
For God must know his mother needed him more;
Then Heavenly Father needed him there.

Heavenly Father does have a plan;
And Mom and Dad are part of it too.
Now Gabe is in the arms of Jesus;
With all kinds of work to do.

Gabe will be waiting for is family;
For they believe in Heavenly Father’s Great Plan.
There is still so much work to do, still so much to learn.
But they will have so much to talk about;
When it’s time to return.

Sorry if I’ve rambled on and on but I wanted to share some thoughts and feelings with all you you who are also struggling with this trial as we are. We’ve been so blessed and had so many wonderful people help us along the way and we’re truly grateful for that. We miss our Gabie Baby so very very much our hearts and arms ache for him every second of every day but we are grateful for the knowledge of where he is and of the important work his is doing and the fact that we will hold him again. If you every see tears streaming down my cheeks just know that I feel him near and I have a growing testimony of the Atonement.