On Saturday night Gabe and Isaac were watching a movie upstairs in David and I’s room. We were downstairs and with the girls. Isaac came downstairs and said Gabie is dead. I went right up to see if he was just sleeping or ok. I found him on my bed on his tummy with blue eyelids and blue lips. Katie immediately got David and he in turn immediately called 911. We started CPR with coaching from the dispatcher. The Ambulance was very fast and we got Gabe to the hospital very quickly. When we arrived he had already flat lined and they started trying to resuscitate him. It took 45 minutes to get a heart beat back. He was given a wonderful blessing by his Grandpa Egley at that time and then taken to get a CT Scan. Later we were told of the results from the CT Scan. His brain had massive swelling. Usually we have ridge’s in our brain and Gabe’s had no ridges anymore just a smooth surface. His heart was beating on it’s own but he was not breathing on his own anymore. The put him in the PICU and we started waiting for a sign that he was coming back to us. The doctors and nurses were amazing in taking care of him and us. They did test’s to see if his brain stem was functioning normally and it was not in all the tests. They waited until 36 hours to make sure none of the tests changed. At about 48 hours we were sure that he was not coming back to us on this earth. He had no response to any of the tests and the Neurologist saw no activity on the EEG. We discussed having him be a donor and let the doctor know we were ok with that. Once that was decided the doctor called time of death on the 12th. The cause is still unknown; there will be a autopsy done to see if we can determine anything new but as of now all we know is that Gabe watched a movie with his big brother then painlessly fell asleep and went to live with his Father in Heaven.
Yesterday when we were saying our goodbyes and holding him my brother played I Am A Child of God for Gabe on the Violin and at that time I had a peace come over me that helped me know that Gabe is ok and right where he is needed most. We love him dearly and will miss him horribly but we now he’s exactly where he needs to be.
Tonight at 1am Gabe will to into surgery and have his heart and kidney’s removed and then taken to California to be giving to two separate recipients that are in need of them. His heart will save another child out there and his kidneys will also help someone. We are proud parents to have such a special baby to be able to come to us in a perfect little body and share so much joy with us and now hopefully give some other child the chance to give their parents that same joy.
Gabriel’s funeral will be on Tuesday July 20th. We will give more information as we get it and figure this thing our for ourselves. We have been greatly blessed to have so many prayers and blessing sent to us. We have more support than we know what to do with and feel more loved than we ever imagined we could.
Thank You!!!!!
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Amy, I had a hard time reading that. I know that one day u will see your little angle again, and heavenly father will lift you up more than you will know. Your family will be in our prayers during this difficult time. Ro and i would like to come up if that is alright. We love you and are praying that you will get through this hard time. I love you:)
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Oh, Amy. My heart has just shattered for you. I can't even imagine all that you are going through. Thank you for sharing your beautiful testimony. The Savior lives, and I am certain that your sweet little angle is in his arms.
ReplyDeleteWhat a great blessing to know that he died so peaceful and happy. You are such a great mommy. I am having a hard time with this and can't even dream of what this is doing to you. I am giving Koen extra hugs and thinking of your sweet Gabe, and how they are the same age. You are truly amazing to have him as a son. Please let me know if I can help with anything.
ReplyDeleteAmy, thank you for sharing despite the pain you must be feeling right now. You and your family are amazing! Big hugs to all of you!
ReplyDeleteLove, Michelle D.
Amy this is heartwrenching...I can't stop thinking about you and your family..hugs...prayers...
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing something so personal. I'm sure it wasn't easy. I am amazed by you and David. You are such strong and unselfish peolple. I'm so glad that you decided to help two other families. You are amazing. I'm so greatful for our faith and I know Gabe is with his Father in Heaven. Love you!
ReplyDeleteThese are such tender pictures! Travis and I have you and your family in our prayers. You are such a strong mom. Many hugs from the Smart's.
ReplyDeleteAmy...What a beautiful little guy! My heart goes out to you and your family, I can't even imagine the pain you must be feeling. We pray that you will find strength and comfort, especially in your long days of lonliness. You are so awesome and have quietly shared such an amazing testimony of the gospel. Gabe was a Miracle and now his is home safe with Heavenly Father.
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Amy..I know we don't know each other, but I heard of your family's ordeal the other day. I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing such tender pictures along with your testimony. What a special little boy you are blessed with. You are in our prayers.
ReplyDeleteMy name is Courtney Mortensen. Oh how my heart goes out to you. I just bawled reading your post. As a parent of my own my heart breaks for you. I do see through this tragedy what a strong testimony you have. I so look up to you. My friend was one of the nurses that assisted your little guy that night. In telling me a little of your story she noticed how strong you guys were through the whole thing. She was just amazed and touched by your testimonies. She said what a strong spirit was in that room. Again although you don't know me my prayers are with you.
ReplyDeleteAmy, I learned about your sons passing through Hollie's blog. I can't even begin to imagine what you and your family are going through right now. You have such a beautiful outlook on such an unfair situation. Your courage and strength are so inspiring. Please know that you and your family are in our thoughts and prayers. xoxo
ReplyDeleteOh Amy I am so sorry for your family's loss. I can't even read about it or look at the pictures without crying. I remember seeing him just a couple months ago when I dropped off your Mary Kay stuff. I know it must be horribly hard but thankfully there is the comfort of knowing that he is with our Heavenly Father doing his work and that you will get to see him again. I won't be able to come to the funeral but my heart and prayers are with you and your family.
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Amy, I am so sorry. I wish I had something helpful to say, but I don't. You are in our prayers. If we can I'd love to help with anything you need. Abby says to tell Madison she's sorry and she is thinking of her.
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Sweet Saville Family,
ReplyDeleteI am a friend of Angela Ferrara's and read her post today and clicked through to read yours. Although I don't know you personally, I am weeping with you this afternoon for your earthly loss of beautiful little Celestial Gabe. We will be praying for your family's strength and faith and peace. You will be blessed.
Anna Crowe
Amy,
ReplyDeleteMy heart is breaking for you right now. I saw Gabe's obituary in the Idaho State Journal and decided to get on your blog. I can't even begin to imagine what you must be going through right now. I'm no longer on Facebook, but I did remember your family's blogsite. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. It's so great knowing that we will see loved ones again. That's the only thing that keeps me going in this life. Take care and I love you!
Taunya Brown Boes
Amy, please know that our thoughts and prayers are with you every day. I feel it such a privilege to have Isaac in my sunbeam class, and my mind just keeps going back to the Sunday when Isaac talked about how he helps his little brother Gabe.
ReplyDeleteI know that through the temple sealing, we will be together with our families again.
I love this quote from the an article on the church website:
"Some women are unable to raise all their children to maturity, because their children die at an early age. The Prophet Joseph taught that many of these children were too pure and lovely to live in the corruption on earth. Even as we mourn their present loss to us, we have reason to rejoice because they have been delivered from evil. (See Teachings of the Prophet Joseph Smith, sel. Joseph Fielding Smith [1976], 196–97.) He also taught that those who die before the age of eight are saved in the celestial kingdom (see D&C 137:10). The mothers of these children, if they live faithfully, will raise them to maturity during the Millennium (see Joseph F. Smith, Gospel Doctrine, 5th ed. [1939], 455–56)."
We love you and your sweet family and pray the the Lord will shower down upon you His choicest blessings during this trying time.
I came across your blog and felt like I should leave a comment. I am incredibly sorry for the loss of you beautiful boy Gabe. You're right, he is in a good place but it doesn't replace the anguish you must feel. I pray that you will stay strong and continue to feel peace from our Father in Heaven.
ReplyDeleteYour story has truly touched my heart. I came across it through the Sullenger's blog and I am so heartbroken for you. I wanted to thank you from the bottom of my heart for your decision to donate your precious baby's organs to help someone else. My son will be recieving a kidney transplant in his future and I am so grateful and touched that you thought of doing this wonderful act of kindness to help someone in need. I truly admire you and all of those who have lost children. What an amazing example of faith and hope you are to the world. Thank you for sharing your story and for your inspiring words. You are in my thoughts and prayers...
ReplyDeleteAmy,
ReplyDeleteGabe is such a handsome, sweet boy! And, he obviously has an amazing spirit to boot! I am so glad we got to meet at the concert! There are so many similarities in our son's passings, and my heart aches for the pain I know you went through, and are currently going through! Even spending just a little bit of time during one evening with you showed me how amazing you and your family are! I don't understand why it has to pour when it rains, but I guess that's why we have faith to get us through the times when there is no other way to get through them! I will be praying for your family for everything to fall into place with your home and being able to move to your husband's job!
Your other children look so beautiful as well, and it sounds like they are pretty amazing spirits themselves! I hope and pray the Spirit will be with you and your family, especially for this first little while where the days can be so hard and unpredictable!
Please let me know if there is anything I can do for you!
With love,
Diana Fischer
nanafischer@hotmail.com
I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet baby boy. I lost my 4th old to SIDS in August of 2010. Gabe was just so beautiful. I am sorry that you know this pain as well as I do :(
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